I take all kinds of anti depressants
I take all kinds of anti depressants, I've tried everything there is to try and I never feel any better. Some times I'll find a medication that makes me feel numb and that's sort of ok. Most of the time I just wish I was dead though. I think about killing myself all the time. I want to just go to sleep and never wake up. I'm married with two kids and I love them all so much. They are the only things that keep me from doing it. It's so hard sometimes though. It's not their fault, they're all wonderful. I've been this way my whole life I think. I don't know how to make it better and I can't stand the thought of going through the rest of my life like this when Im only 25. I hate what I see when I look in the mirror. I hate the thoughts that go through my head. I look at the rest of the world and think it's a horrible place that's not worth living in. I want to be happy but I don't know how. Even when everything is going right I'm still miserable.