I don't know what to do
There's a guy. He's hilarious, an a******, he ruins my day, makes my day, makes me feel awful, makes me feel special, confuses me, I hate him. But he's all I want. And I can't stop thinking about him. I have no self confidence. He acts like he likes me, but he acts like this to other girls too who he tells me he hates. And I know he really doesn't like them. He tells me I'm pretty, but I always feel as if he's making fun of me. He grabs me and hugs me. Then other times he'll just push me over. He stares at me, but then says something mean jokingly. But I just don't take it as a joke. I Want him to be mine. But I don't to be his. I can't stop thinking about him. Please help.