I'm tired and I'm reckless with no where to go.
I'm 17 years old and falling apart. I don't want to be the cliche teenager girl who's life is just so unfair. I don't want you to think I'm doing anything for attention. all I know is that everything is not ok. I have no relationship with my siblings or parents, even though I live with all of them. I'm losing interest in everything I once cared for. I've quit playing sports I love and I've quit trying in school. I've slept with guys. I've smoked things I regret. I've drank things I regret. I won't tell anyone I regret doing these things. I've stopped eating. I only eat five things a day. when I feel like I'm about to pass out, I drink a powerade. my friends and family haven't noticed anything. the worst part is the burns covering my arms. no one knows about them. no one sees them. I wear long sleeves and sweaters to cover them up. no one questions this even though it's summer weather in Georgia. I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't be happy.