First kiss

When i was 10 or 11 i used to stay over at my uncle's place. i had a female cousin that i am closed with, like a best friend. One night, i am not sure how it happened but we were in the same bed together and then she touched my **. At the time, i couldn't really get it up as i haven't really gotten to the puberty stage so i touched her **. i start rubbing it. Mind you at the time i've never watched ** at all. never knew it existed. ** i didn't know what ** ** was till i was 14.

later as we progressed she would stick my flaccid ** in her mouth as i would eat her **.

Man, it was stupid and it's been years, we don't talk about it and i don't fantasize about my cousin that way now and i am sure vice versa for her but **, what the ** happened? why did we do that?
i mean, what compelled us to do that? i know i never watch any simulated ** on TV or anything at the time but if anyone got a good explanation to this please shed some light. thanks