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I looked at my naked body in the mirror
I looked at my naked body in the mirror for the first time in ova 5 1/2 months since being **. I hated what I saw. I saw a dirty person whose scars were just a reminder of the horrors the dirt presented. It was a past, a present and no doubtly my future. I wanted to buldge my eyes out. I cried for hours. I couldn't look at me and love me. I'm confessing with my body completely covered. My tears as though it was rain. I can't admit this to myself as I just can't deal with it. Perhaps writing it will numb the pain... nothing else seems to.
Don't take someone else's ugliness and apply it to yourself. He took advantage of you but that is all he took. The rest is up to you. Do not give him that he allready took more than he should have. No more. It is time to empower yourself to love yourself and be good to yourself. Go out and buy a new oufit and do something you like.
WOW... thats crazy... Im so sorry.. the same thing happened to me about 9 months ago.. i know how you feel..i was choked bit slapped and punched over and over again.. i couldnt look at myself and i couldnt stand anyone else looking at me.. i still can't get all of it off my mind.. so im feeling your pain if you need to talk or anything.. if you have myspace add me.. www.myspace.com/mirandanicole09 ill tlak to you if you need help...