I am a compulsive gambler
I really need to get something off my chest. I recently moved back to my home state from Las Vegas because while living there, I developed a serious gambling addiction. Gambling is not legal in my home state so moving back was a way to get out of the casinos and reconnect with family and try to live a "normai" life. It worked for about a year and then I discovered "gamerooms" all over town. They are basically illegal places with slot machines that advertise "no cash payouts" but you really do get cash. It wasn't so bad at first because the games are kinda lame and you don't win much at all.
Anyway, it has gotten progressively worse and I am extremely depressed and suicidal at times. I've lost a lot of money recently and the biggest part of it is that I work for my family's business and have access to a lot of money. I write checks to myself from my company and have taken nearly $30,000 in less than a year and blew it all gambling. I've lost it in casinos in a nearby state or in the gamerooms or playing "charity" bingo. It's really getting the best of me because it's my family that I work for that will suffer also. My mom is the only person that knows about it and she also works for our business. I feel awful that I've put her in this position. I really want to get help but just don't know how.
Please don't comment if you're going to be rude or obnoxious, I really do need advice and help, thank you.