A Secret I Keep From My Best Friend
A message to my best friend:
I want you to be happy all your life.
I want to be there for you even at your very worst.
I want to challenge you, because I want you to become a better person... but you know I can't because you know I'm just too nice to you.
I want to share your secrets, pain, and anxiety, because I know you've been holding on to so much... but I know you can't because you're so nice to me too.
I want to give you love, even though I know you already have someone in your heart. To be honest, it pains me that things have grown a little awkward, and that I could not tell you how I truly feel. Then again, I'm so grateful and so happy that you are giving your all to make things alright, even if you don't know what's going on.
I want to give you my life, because I know, and God knows too, that I truly love you with all my mind, all my heart, and all my soul. And I would continue to give you the very best of myself, even if you don't see me the same way I do.
I love you so much, and I will never stop loving you. I will be waiting for you, no matter how long it takes. I just wish that I can tell you all of these. I know, however, that you do not want to hear these words, especially from me... your best friend.
Give it up, stalker in training.