When i met you, I blushed because you were so beautiful to me, your eyes filled me with certainty that you were going to b my first. Im still not sure how i knew that, but i was positive. Stephen, you made me laugh, and when you werent looking you made me cry so much i felt nothing but ache for 2 years while you jumped between being my friend and calling me to "hear my voice". Yes, you were married, but when we met u were 1600 miles away from her and supposed to b seperating, so i let myself hope. I gave you my virginity and u went bk to her 5 days later and then gave me 2 years of phone calls that blurred the line between friends and lovers. I do not hate you, i knew and know i never could, but dont feel for a moment that because your wife died and youre coming back that ill b on the sidelines for you still. Im amazing, and i deserved better.