. . I couldn't forget the endless nights. The laughter. The phone calls. The innocent trouble. How could you block it out? I wish you could just understand that my "betrayal" was because I didn't want to lose you. Ever. I wanted to help you and protect you. I wanted you to be happy. I couldn't deal with the fact that I was never enough. Idk if you will ever even read this. I really don't know what happend. Do you?