I'm in love and I don't want to be

I'm a guy. I knew this girl over 4 years ago. She was my best friend. We used to talk for hours on end. She worked at the same job as I did, so we had a lot of time together. I told her that I loved her all of the time but she took it as meaning that I loved her as a friend. I was really in love with her and too much of a wimp to tell that to her face. Suddenly our long conversations turned into a couple of words exchanged every other week and then every other month and then she just stopped talking to me all together. Come to find out she was with someone and never told me. She must have found out how I felt about her and decided it was best if we just didn't talk. I was completely cool with all of that, or so I thought. It's been almost 5 years and I still can't forget her. I'm still, it seems even more in love with her now then I was then. Or rather in love with who she was. I wish I could not love her because if I didn't I wouldn't hurt so much.

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  • Isn't all love "pathetic" to some extent?
    Or maybe it's not the idea of love itself, but rather those who believe in it.

    I don't think anyone who has ever loved, who has ever made any mistakes, who has ever lost someone valuable to him or her, is allowed to call you pathetic.

    I get that sometimes we have the tendency to cling on to what we know best. We hold on to our memories, our past, so tightly that really, in the end, we only end up suffocating ourselves. It feels like a slow, painful death.. doesn't it?

    But it isn't. You'll make it through.
    Because honestly, she won't come back. And you know that.
    She's moved on my dear.
    It's time for you to do the same.

    Live for yourself :)

  • Wow commenter, harsh. But, thanks, now I don't have to type it out.

  • You are a sad case. You proclaimed your love for this girl over and over and she made it clear she did not feel the same. She apparently did not lead you to believe you ever had a shot but you continued to cling to the idea you did. Wow. She finally had to cut you out of her life completely to get the message across to you. Yet you continue to hold out hope five years later. Don't be so pathetic.

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