Pretending to be someone I'm not
Here's my story. This isn't gonna be easy for me. For the past 6 months I have been pretending to be someone else. I have been talking to a guy and he thinks I am a pretty girl named Kimberly when in reality I am just a regular girl named Karen. Kimberly is a girl at my school who is the most beautiful girl in the whole school. one day I was on an iPod app and we needed a profile picture so I took hers from her Facebook and posted it so I was pretending to be her. I did it because I knew more guys would talk to her. It's not that I'm ugly or anything because I don't think I am it's just the fact that she was perfect. I wanted to be just like her. So I pretended to be her for a long time till I met a kid names Didier. He was also using the app I was on so I decided to have a talk with him for a while. No big deal at all. Until we started to text each other and ME (Karen) fell in love with him . And me being a dumb ass told him I was in love with him but as "Kimberly" . Turned out he felt the same way. I kept talking to him and talking to him for months and months pretending to be Kimberly. We even talked on the phone and he would call me "Kimberly" not knowing who he was really talking to. and it's august, Saturday would be our 6months knowing each other and talking basically acting like a couple. I tell him I love him and I've made promises that can't keep because I'm not REALLY Kimberly like who he thinks I am. I have so much guilt in me it drives me crazy. I don't know what to do! I hate my life right now and I tell him all the time I would never lie to him or hurt him but what the real me is doing is REALLY hurting someone innocent who doesn't deserve to be hurt. He has been thru so much pain his whole life that all he wants is someone to love him and that's the only reason why I stick around as Kimberly because I don't want to hurt this amazing guy. He fell in love with my personality but with someone else image. I feel like I have gone way too far because we plan our future together and he calls me his best friend and the ONLY person he can trust. I don't know what to do! I need serious help! Please someone help me ! he's my world , He Kimberly's and REAL ME (Karen's) world. I would do anything for him but he just believes the girl he fell In love with is Kimberly. someone give me advice on what to do! If anybody can help me I would really appreciate it a lot. Thank you for taking the time to read my story.