Am I really lying to her?
My friend has suspected her boyfriend of doing cocoaine for a while now. She's never asked me directly about it, only talked to me about it. Problem is...I know for a fact that he does it. And reason is because I've done it with him a couple times. I feel like a terrible person and horrible friend for keeping this from her. She has a right to know but I am embarrassed about the fact that I've done it myself. I truly believe that she would hate me if I were to come out with the truth about everything now. And I wouldn't blame her for hating me. I have to work with her though and I can't bear the thought of going to work every day with such uncomfortable circumstances. Not only would she hate but there are other people there that would think badly of me as well. So I just can't bring myself to tell her the truth. One of my biggest fears about the whole situation is that if the truth comes out, I'm afraid her boyfriend will throw me under the bus and tell her that I know about everything. I'm hoping that doesn't happen. I don't think 'confessing' will make me feel any better but at least I can get it off my chest! Don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it because I feel like such a terrible person...I'm embarrassed to admit this to anyone!