Something to get off of my chest . . .
I just need to get this out of my chest . Here it goes .
We've been friends for 5 years . You're my bestfriend and the only friend that I really care about . For me, you are more than a friend and more like a family member . I can never get mad at you, no matter what you do . I love you and I accept you for who you are . You're a bisexual and i'm okay with that . Though sometimes I feel so left out whenever i'm with you, I still stick by your side . I am never as smart/beautiful/talented/popular compared to you . Yes, you're popular and i'm just a nobody . I look like a nerd but you're so stunning . Many guys fall for you, even girls . Still, I dont care . I only care about our friendship , I even promised myself to take care of you till my last breath . we were so close but everything changes this year . You found someone new . She's a new student and let just say you and her become more than a friend . You spend more time with her and I get the feeling that you have forgotten about me . I feel like i'm not needed . Days go by and we dont even talk to each other anymore . And what hurts the most is knowing that we're classmates . I see you everyday, happy with her . Sometimes, I forget that you and I are bestfriends . Still, I love you and I care about you . Honestly, I cried everynight just because of this . It's not that I never tried to talk to you but whenever I see you laughing with her, I feel like I shouldnt bother you guys . Beside, you two always stick together . Never once I see you left her side . No, I never blame her nor you but I blame myself for being such a loser . For never having the guts to tell you how I feel . the other day, I said that the word bye is for you , maybe it hurts you but it was not for you but for me . Why? Because i'm saying bye to 'me' who used to cry about our friendship everynight . I'm finally able to move on and say i'm ok with things now . I dont have to lie to myself anymore . Finally, i'm okay . Thanks to God . Well I wont let myself be emotionally attached to anyone anymore cause I know how it fuxking hurts when they leave you . Still, i'll care about you just like i've promised myself . And i'm here whenever you need a friend . I'll care, help you, giving you advices, anything, but I wont let myself be emotionally attached to you anymore . I hope you'll be happy with her . Good luck in your life . No, I never leave you . Remember me . :)