I don't hate black people.
I promise, I'm black too. However, I live in an urban area (read: the hood) and I am not accepted at all. I'm that "white kid" who's always trying to be different. Or at least that's how they see me. I mean, just because I like Britney Spears, that means I hate the entire black population? Just because I don't curse (in public, in my head I'm a sailor) that makes me a goody two shoes? Just because I care about my grades and want to get out of an urban area that makes me stuck up? Seriously, I hate that. :( I love being black, and I love black people. I just hate how the majority treats me! They treat me like I'm some alien that came from another planet. I mean, I get it. I don't go around claiming that I rep these different types of gangs, and I don't speak the same way as they do. I actually like using proper English. I get it. But I don't get why that makes me an outsider. :( It's like.. I'm not "white" enough for the white people. Or "black" enough for the blacks. My personality is what is keeping me from making more friends, and I refuse to change who I am. I am not ashamed of myself. I just hate being alone. What's a gal to do?