I don't hate black people.

I promise, I'm black too. However, I live in an urban area (read: the hood) and I am not accepted at all. I'm that "white kid" who's always trying to be different. Or at least that's how they see me. I mean, just because I like Britney Spears, that means I hate the entire black population? Just because I don't curse (in public, in my head I'm a sailor) that makes me a goody two shoes? Just because I care about my grades and want to get out of an urban area that makes me stuck up? Seriously, I hate that. :( I love being black, and I love black people. I just hate how the majority treats me! They treat me like I'm some alien that came from another planet. I mean, I get it. I don't go around claiming that I rep these different types of gangs, and I don't speak the same way as they do. I actually like using proper English. I get it. But I don't get why that makes me an outsider. :( It's like.. I'm not "white" enough for the white people. Or "black" enough for the blacks. My personality is what is keeping me from making more friends, and I refuse to change who I am. I am not ashamed of myself. I just hate being alone. What's a gal to do?

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  • Just keep doing what you are doing. You cannot make people like you! And you cannot change who you are, NOR should you.

    From your post you sound like a very good and decent person who is trying hard to have a good life.

    Don't give up and don't be depressed, you can and will be successful!
    What about your family... any cousins your age?Maybe you could look around and try to find just 1 or 2 girls in your age group to talk with and see how it goes from there.
    Be true to yourself!
    All the Best to you.

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