I get that, its something to obsess over and take up empty head space, and it feels like a goal to achieve and since nothings good enough when you have an eating disorder you always have something to chase
I feel the same. I had a tendency of starving myself whenever I did not feel like I was good enough. A couple of weeks ago I told a teacher and a school nurse about this and ever since I have been eating normally but I do not really like it. Sure I do not feel dizzy anymore and I am more awake and have more strength but starving myself made me feel better, more accomplished, and prettier. You are not alone in this fight. So do not give up or give in.
I get that, its something to obsess over and take up empty head space, and it feels like a goal to achieve and since nothings good enough when you have an eating disorder you always have something to chase
I feel the same. I had a tendency of starving myself whenever I did not feel like I was good enough. A couple of weeks ago I told a teacher and a school nurse about this and ever since I have been eating normally but I do not really like it. Sure I do not feel dizzy anymore and I am more awake and have more strength but starving myself made me feel better, more accomplished, and prettier. You are not alone in this fight. So do not give up or give in.