I'm mentally exhausted. I found out that the boy I like has a gf. :( I've been struggling at school (socially wise), I had a bit of an altercation with someone I use to consider my friends. I try so hard to be fashionable and look nice. And what stresses me out even more is that I KNOW this stuff doesn't matter. 10 years from now, no one will care what happened in high school. I tell myself this all the time, yet, I can't shake this...superficial feeling. In school, I feel like I'm pretended to be someone I'm not. At home, I feel...bad I guess because I'm growing up and everyone just expects me to be that same 12 year old girl, and I'm not anymore. I feel like I'm changing, but it's a good and bad thing. It's good because I'm learning to be more confident and I'm learning to love myself, and all those great lessons. It's bad because of the things I have to go through to learn them. I'm mentally, emotionally, physically exhausted. I literally have no type of strength. I have no one to talk to about this though... and it sucks. No one takes me seriously, so here I am... confessing this all online.