I'm mentally exhausted. I found out that the boy I like has a gf. :( I've been struggling at school (socially wise), I had a bit of an altercation with someone I use to consider my friends. I try so hard to be fashionable and look nice. And what stresses me out even more is that I KNOW this stuff doesn't matter. 10 years from now, no one will care what happened in high school. I tell myself this all the time, yet, I can't shake this...superficial feeling. In school, I feel like I'm pretended to be someone I'm not. At home, I feel...bad I guess because I'm growing up and everyone just expects me to be that same 12 year old girl, and I'm not anymore. I feel like I'm changing, but it's a good and bad thing. It's good because I'm learning to be more confident and I'm learning to love myself, and all those great lessons. It's bad because of the things I have to go through to learn them. I'm mentally, emotionally, physically exhausted. I literally have no type of strength. I have no one to talk to about this though... and it **. No one takes me seriously, so here I am... confessing this all online.Oct 14, 2011
Christ that **. I was in a similiar predicament.
I dont really have any advice but I wanted to tell you that it's a fantastic thing that you know its all stressing you the ** out and you KNOW that it really does not matter.
Which means, from the sound of it all, that you're exactly what I consider to be the best type of person.
Like I said, no good advice, you just have to stick it out and maybe find other places and avenues of meeting new kinds of people. Find somewhere or something that has the kind of vibe/people that you really would like to associate with and just be yourself.
There really really really are people out there who honestly dont give a ** what youre wearing or even how you SMELL as long as you are witty honest and yourself.
Then even if you only hear from them once a month you wont give a ** about what the small-minded, dipshits you have to spend your day with say.
Don't worry about the people who used to be your friends. When I was in school I hung out with a people who got in trouble all the time, and i started spending time with another girl I thought would be good in our little, "group" but once she got close to me to where I thought of her as a best friend she turned the whole group against me and I was bullied the rest of the whole year. The next year of school was fine, I made new friends that didn't get me in trouble and realized I was better off with out them.
Hope everything gets better.