Feelings for my cousin
So, here it goes.
For the longest time now, I have been having feelings for a girl that I shouldn't have feelings for. That's because she's my cousin. I've never thought about my cousins like that before but with her it's different. I enjoy hanging out with her, listening to her talk about life and her problems, and just being around her. She also really turns me on. I peek at her when ever I get that chance to. I've never been so attracted to a girl like this before and I know it's not right.
She never notice that when ever she has a boyfriend that I get jealous. I'm scared to tell her what I think about her but I have a feeling she might feel the same way just by the things she has told me before. I could be wrong though but than again who knows? I'm even emailing her with a email I made up just to tell her what I think of her but Im too scared to tell her who I really am.
If she ends up feeling the same way, should we keep it a secret from our family and friends? I mean, it's kinda a fantasy to be with her. Maybe if she feels the same we can just fool around and get it out of our systems, but than again, I wouldnt mind growing old married and still secretly f****** her. Anyways, back to the point. I have strong feelings for her and really think she might have feelings for me. What should I do?