Regret never goes away?

I'm 27, when I was sixteen I had my bestfriend from 5th grade. We was the tightest friends, we built forts, went paint balling, played games, went on dates, hooked up with girls, partied, drank, smoked, road triped everything. Then senior year, bros we were.. He betrayed me and I never forgave him. He lied, he stole and rippe me off. It was stupied. I see that now. I thought we would be brothers for life. He tried to apologise, but inwas so mad. I never forgave him. I was on facebook about a week ago.
He died.

Apparently, he got caught up in drugs. Never finished highschool. Dropped out. He had a son, his middle name is my name. I can't stop crying. My life is so good. I finished highschool went to collage. Have about a dozen friends and a stable life. I miss him. I wish o could have told him I was sorry. I loved him like family.. I thought I'd have all the time in the world. That one day maybe I would talk to him. I was wrong.

I'll never forget you.
I'm sorry, Brandon. I'm so, so sorry.

Nov 5, 2011

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  • We are the creator of our own destiny...he is responsible for his deeds..so chill...I was in his shoes but I managed to control my self...I am grateful for this life...so far I am just a low wage worker but I have peace within me....

  • If your friend betrayed you I can't see why you'd have major regrets. Stealing and lying to a friend is unacceptable. You are probably just grieving when things were good between you. And that's okay but it still doesn't wipe out that he screwed you over because of his drug problem. He became someone else than you knew originally.

  • you and I are just the same. I get mad when someone f*** me over. As time goes by, I calm down but regardless if I want to or not. But I still pretend that I am mad so that when I think time is right to resolve things, they will know that I ain't someone they can just f*** with and get away with it.

    That's how I see it and that's how I do it cause growing up I have been bullied and f***** over by so many people. Taking me for granted and s***, but now I know better. You know the saying friends come, friends go, well, for me you don't lose friends, you just find your real friends in time.

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