Scared of disappointment
I have rounded shoulders and curved ribs. Nobody can see it when I have my clothes on, but when I take them off it looks terrible. I'm scared. I'm scared that one day someone may fall in love with me, and when he'll see my ribs and shoulders he'll be disappointed. I'm so scared, that I push people away, because I don't want anybody to be dissapointed. I'm lonely and sad and the worst is that it's my fault- i'm beating myself down. But I'm just so scared. Scared of that dissapointed look in his eyes.
I know that love isn't only about apparance, plus I'm quite pretty anyway, but my mind is so obssesed with this defects that it's making me sick.
I don't want to be lonely anymore, but I guess I don't have other option.