I like cutting myself and the scars it makes. It first started out of curiosity then habit and now euphoria. I get a high and I often catch myself smiling while I do it. I do it when I'm sad, bored, or just plain lonely. I wear sweaters everyday to hide my disgusting self. I often catch myself thinking of what a boyfriend would think if he saw it. It's weird and gross yet it brings me happiness. Is it really wrong? Of course not, it feels better than a lot of things. Some people exercise, shop, or read where as I cut. If you looked at me you wouldn't see it. I look clean and well mannered but inside I'm dirty and aching.