I think about it all the time.. I've been obsessed with it since I was 9 years old when I was getting molested and raped. My wife told me today that she wants a divorce, I feel more and more like doing it every day. I already have planned out how I'm going to do it but I just have not gotten a date. I keep having the hope that life will get better but I'm overweight, starting to bald, I'm really emotionally jacked up. They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I say what makes you stronger isn't worth it.