I believe I still love my first love. It's been four years since we have broken up.
He abused me, physically, mentally, and sexually, and yet I still loved him.

I met a new boy, and he changed my world. We've been together for going on two years, and we are moving in together next month.
He's everything I could ever ask for, hope for, and more.
He's my own little prince charming in a way.

But the thing is, I've been hiding a secret from him.
About a month ago, my ex drove three hours to come see me in the new town that I was living. We spent the whole day together, doing the little things that we used to do when we were together. It was nice taking a trip down memory lane.

Ever since that day, I haven't been able to get him out of my head. The odd thing was, I hadn't thought nor talked to him until one day he randomly called me and told me he was in my town and wanted to get together.

Then today, I find out that he has a new girlfriend, and it hurt me a little. I don't know what i'm feeling, and it scares me.

I can see myself having a future with my current boyfriend, but I can't help but feel guilty for keeping from him the fact that these old feelings for my ex have come flooding back.

I don't know what to do.

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  • i really think you need to tell your current bf what happened that you just met up with him cause he happened to be in town and that he has a girl friend as well. Especially sinc eyour moving in together you both need to be truthful and honest with each other or it will never work. so do the right thing and tell him.

  • Oh no, no, no, no. Do not tell him anything. You need to figure out what you want. You also need psychological help. Even thinking of getting back together with someone who abused you in so many ways is a sign of serious self-esteem issues, at the minimum.


    But frankly, it sounds like the current guy is too good for you. You're messed up. Sorry.

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