I Worry Over My Hero
My boyfriend of 7 years is a lieutenant in the ADF (Australian Defence Force). We've been together since we were 16 and I love him, dearly.
He's the strongest person I know. He's full of courage and valour. He's been my hero through every mishap that came my way (such as anorexia, depression, MPD) and he never fails to amaze me.
If anything, he is the last person to be worried about. He can handle any situation. He's tough, he's logical, he's rational, he's intelligent...he's handsome...
But despite all of this, I still worry about him. He calls me as often as he can and he avoids telling me about the horrors he witnesses during war, anything to stop me from worrying. Only today I learnt that he's been out of action for a week since he got shot. He didn't tell me but a friend of his did, they reassured me he would be fine.
I asked my boyfriend why he never told me about this and he said that he doesn't want me to worry about him because as much as he tries to avoid it, being shot comes with his duty. He later told me that this was not the first time it happened to him.
I wish I could listen to him and accept that he won't be killed, but on the TV every day young faces of lost men come up. I hope that I won't see his face on the screen.
I want him to be safe, because I love him so much. And when he comes back, maybe we can start a family and get our civil union.
Regardless of how strong he is as a person, I will never stop worrying about him.