I pick my skin. i pick my skin on my face, and my legs. i have depression and an anxiety disorder, and i am so ashamed. i'm a 16 year old girl. i don't know why i do it, it's just, i feel like i have to constantly punish myself- like i deserve the pain I put myself through every night before I brush my teeth. it's like a poison. i have tried so hard to stop, but it's almost like there's a power inside me- greater than any willpower- that tells me that it's ok. i've been through a lot of bullying and hardships at home, and i do go to therapy, but it still doesn't help. my parents don't know i do it. the only person i have ever told is my therapist. i know it will scar my face, i know i will bleed, and i know the feeling of shame after i do it, but it still happens. sometimes after i have a session of picking i cry, and make myself stare at all the irritation, and red blotches on my skin. but the desire is like a disease that will never go away. sometimes i will pick for 30 minutes at the bathroom mirror, and desire the feeling of pressure release when I pop a pimple. it's instant gratification for me. but i know i'm doing it... i just can't stop.