For the past month or so, I've been having frequent panic attacks, seemingly for no reason. My mind has been such a wreck, that it makes things up that I know in my heart aren't true, and I wind up panicking over these thoughts, even though I know they're not real.
I think also, the fact that my boyfriend literally knows everything about me, has left me feeling more vulnerable than I've ever felt in my life, and though I trust him (we've been going strong for over two years now), I'm terrified of him leaving me. He's my best friend. He says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me, and I feel the same way, I'm just horrified that one morning, he'll change his mind and leave. I know I'm hard to deal with sometimes. I'm really emotional and panic about nothing, and I cry a lot, and I get physically sick really easily, but I try so hard to be the best girlfriend that I can be to him. I love him so much and I just don't want to lose him.