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Ugly **
I have had to go though my entire life being treated badly because I am ugly. When I was in elementary school, i would hang out with my so called friends at school but never invited me to come over to their houses and when I would invite them over to my house they always said they were busy. In middle school, I was bullied and called bad names and had awful rumors spread about me. My freshman year in high school was much the same. By my sophomore year, i moved to another school and hoped that my pain would end. This was no the case. People gave me disgusted looks, comment about my unattractiveness behind my back, or sometimes say it to my face. People would avoid me. I am a senior now and I have been depressed and have tried to end my life 16 times (no longer suicidal). Now I tend to resent attractive people because they have no mercy for my feelings. Sometimes the sight of them can get me depressed or very angry. I am about to go off to college but I am scared about my future where everybody will treat me badly because i am not remotely attractive. I think about the experiences that I will never have like hanging out with friends, getting married, or having kids.I have small hope for the future but I think that my life will end unfavorably for me.
Young people aka "kids" can be heartless ** I think you should attend the future reunions you will be invited to and you will see many of them are ugly too, I had a girlfriend in high school that was really good-looking and soon broke up with me because she had so many guys to choose from, she contacted me awhile back (40 years later) and wanted me to meet her for drinks now that she's fat and no longer attractive so I agreed not wanting to hurt her feelings, but I started giving her info about myself, my current lifestyle, my bad habits, criminal record, she said I would have to stop using drugs, I said no ** way am I doing that she canceled the date the next day. for me, it was a lot less painful now than it was back in school when she dumped me, in fact, I felt relief now I didn't have to go out with her after I said I would but didn't want to and did it without telling her she was too fat and ugly for my taste like the song says "what goes around, comes around"
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. True inner beauty is the most important thing. Someone may fall in love with your mind and inner beauty first, then fall in love with your body.
Don't worry about it too much. Do the next best thing; do very well in college, make a lot of money and watch the attractive people come to you begging for a job.