Might have HPV (an STD that causes Cancer)
I asked this question a while back (read this first please): http://www.confessionpost.com/12432/i-might-have-an-stdor-hiv
Update: I got tested and everything came back NEGATIVE (thank god!)
But the patches and sores on my tongue have not went away since. I keep developing cold sores and pain in my tongue. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Last night I was reading HPV and how this disease can cause Cancer, in my case, in the mouth. I think I might have contracted this. I don't want to have Cancer that was caused from sucking a guy's d***.
I've told my sister I gave him oral s** the day that he dumped me and she promised not to tell anyone else, so no one else in my family knows. What's worse is that he has slept with many girls on my campus and back at his home so he may have spread this to A LOT of other girls. And you know what....I still like him. I haven't been with another guy since. I had s** with him because I wanted to be loved, seeing everyone else with their bfs/gfs made me feel left out and unwanted. Is that so much to ask for?
I don't want to hurt my family, they will be devastated if I tell them this, especially my mother. As long as it's not HIV, I'll be okay with it but I don't want to develop Cancer from something that could have easily been prevented. I made a mistake, one that have probably cost me my life and I'm going to have to live with this fact, fine, so be it.
I have to accept responsibility for my actions. How do I get the nerve to get test for HPV?