I want to do it again, should i?
I have a boyfriend for many years but i am not sexually attracted to him for many years. he never gave me good s** and for me he is more like a brother than lover.
i met another guy and he became good friend of mine. we talked everything and shared everything. finally we had it, i mean, s**. man, he is great. he controlled me like i am his slave, but at the same time, he is so tender and loving, like i am his princess. i am completely into the s** with this guy. we tried all kinds of positions and we both felt we are like animals when we are having s**.
i have to say that i really want to do it again but i am not sure if i should do it. i feel guilty, but at the same time there is a small voice in my brain, saying "you will only live once so enjoy the happiness of s** because you deserve it." i know if i stay will my bf i will never have such amazing s** like what i had with my friend. unfortunately i cannot date this guy. so now i am completely lost.
what should i do?