How to say I'm sorry
A couple years ago, I got really into reading, the next year, it was playing outside, the next year, it was watching T.V. Anyways, you get the point. But about two years ago I got into computers. I played on dress-up sites, game sites, survey sites, but I started getting bored and so I wanted something else to do. My parents never let me go out and hang out with friends, and my self esteem felt really low for some reason. I found a site called omegle and started to go on it every so often. It got boring and annoying too. I lied about who I was on omegle, because the internet is so dangerous, and I didn't want to be stalked or murdered or something if I was to come across a creepy person. I signed up for a rating website, put up the fake picture, fake age, fake location...I made a profile description that was me, my personality showing though. I went through several people, they came and went, we chatted for a bit. I met a guy on there and we talk almost everyday now. I never gave anyone my phone number but I broke down and gave it to him. He says I'm the most amazing person and wants to marry me and meet me and all this other stuff. The interesting part is, I feel similarly, not quite as crazy though, but he's a great person and makes me happy. The terrible part is his love for me is based on a lie. I'm not 22, I'm 16. I look similar to the girl in the pictures. The truth is, I never cuss, I'm an extremely good person. Caring, sweet, he sees all these things in me he says, but I'm lying. Everyday we talk I'm lying. It's the biggest lie ever, I'm not a liar, I'm not a bad person. I told a very bad lie and now I want out. I don't want him to stop loving me, but I don't see any way this could work. I feel like if I tell him, he will hate me. I don't want him to hate me, though. I want him to know my thoughts were true and genuine, but I need him to understand why I lied. Advice from someone who has been through this before would help. He's 22, so it'd be crazy to think we could ever be together. I don't know how I got myself into this mess. I want to get out of it and try to hurt everyone to the most minimal extent.
Do you think he'll turn me to the police or something??
I don't want him to think I faked my personality, or that I'm a fat, ugly, mean person. I don't doubt that he'd be attracted to me, but there is no way this relationship will ever work out, and it's already gone too far. Please, please, help me, I need all the advice I can get. I can't believe I'm going to ruin someone's heart over a stupid lie. I know I love him, but he doesn't love the real me, he probably just loves the girl in the pictures, regardless of the fact that it's my personality.