Should I try suicide a second time? (PLEASE RESPOND)

1.) I'm a 19 year old virgin. I had one boyfriend a couple years ago. The kicker: not even that was real because he was using me to get to his ex-girlfriend who he is to this day still obsessed with. I knew this from the beginning and still went along with it.

2.) I wouldn't say I'm unattractive; I've actually been asked out quite a few times. The real reason I've never had a boyfriend is because I have impossibly high standards. Or do I have impossibly high standards because I don't really want to risk losing myself to a relationship? Or maybe I'm only attracted to guys who are just too good for me and I'm just taking it out on the ones who do want me, like a "if he won't have me then nobody will" thing.

3.) I have lost all passion for everything. I'm a college student and couldn't get a summer job (because my high school job screwed me over) and I haven't left my house in two days. I just alternate between computer-book-tv all day and can't sleep at night. I have no interest to do anything and then I go on facebook, see everyone having a great summer and I want to shoot myself.

4.) I had a really painful childhood and family life and the depression and fear that came with that never. goes. away.

5.) Being home makes me feel like I'm back in highschool again, like college never happened. High school was bad for me and I hate feeling like I'm nothing more than that awkward, insecure, little girl again.

6.)Why, if I'm so lonely, does it feel like such a chore to talk to and make plans with my friends?? And these are good friends that I actually like. Why do I enjoy isolating myself?

Jul 20, 2012

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  • Please don't take your life away because you were put on this earth for a reason. Talk it out with someone. You will succeed. Just be happy because you are worth it. :)

  • Cheer up, go out, meet a guy.

  • u shouldn't

  • I'm exactly like you. I'm a 19 year old virgin - I have a boyfriend but we're in a long distance relationship so I'm alone a lot. It took me a long time to trust him, because I'd been hurt before.
    I don't think I'm that attractive, maybe it ties in with being bullied in school when I was younger but I'm not confident in my appearance either. I think the key is clothes - dress yourself in something you like and you think looks good, then when you go somewhere (even just the supermarket)you're feeling good and not afraid of bumping into people from school.
    I couldn't get a summer job either, the job market is really tough in the UK, especially for students. I dislike losing the independence I had at University, my parents still treat me like a child when I'm home and I don't really have many friends in my town because I lost touch with people after high school finished.
    I'm lonely sometimes. It's worse at night when I'm missing my boyfriend, when I have no-one to cuddle! Just hold on, honestly I think suicide is the most selfish thing you could do. Though you don't feel like it, there are lots of people around you who would be devastated if you were to kill yourself. Trust me, in time you'll thank God you never went through with it. There is always another way to deal with your issues. And if you want to talk, I have no issue listening to you :)I just hope you come back to your post and read this, because I really want to help you.

  • Friend, There are billions if not trillions of galaxies and planets, yet so far we are the only known life in the cosmos. Life is rare don't get rid of it that quickly. You may ask what is the purpose to life the answer is there is none. Being that there is no purpose you give it purpose, find what you can do to make it better for yourself and others. Give it purpose make those who feel like you feel better. It sucks but sometimes we can't be Gotham sometimes we need to be Batman. So can you be Batman?

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