Self Harm Survey
Label yourself (prep, goth, druggie, weirdo, etc.): “Literate and Complicated”
How long have you been cutting? 8 years off and on, relapsed three months ago
Favorite tool? Razor blade, broken glass, eraser, lighter
Where (place) do you cut? (school, home, etc.): My room, the bathroom at school and home.
Do you have to hide your whole arm(s) (wrists,forearms,& upper arms etc)? Yes because my cuts/scars are on my forearms and wrists.
Do you have to wear long-sleeves & long-pants all the time? Hoodies & long sleeves, jeans and long dresses.
Do you cut on your stomach, or chest? Yes.
Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars? Arms, legs, stomach, wrists.
What’s your favorite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut? My cats did it, I was pulling blackberries, burnt myself on the stove.
Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting? No, I have given myself stitches 3 times though.
Off the top of your head, about how many scars do you have?: Over 300
Do you have (diagnosed) depression, and/or bipolar/bpd?: Yes.
Who knows you cut? Three friends suspect I'm doing it again
Have you ever been caught cutting? Yes.
Have your parents ever confronted you about a b***** sleeve, or towel? Yes.
Did you have a good childhood? Not for the most part.
Why do you cut? To feel like I am in control of something, to make emotional pain more tangible and understandable, and because I hate my body and want others to see how ugly it is too.
Have you ever talked to a therapist or counselor? Yes, I have been in counseling with nearly a dozen therapists in the past.
Do you want to stop cutting (but can’t because of addiction)? Some days I want nothing more than to quit, other times its like my only lifeline to reality.
Do you like cutting? Yes, it's calming and soothing.
How many times have you tried to complete suicide? 8
What are your views on cutting, and other self-injury? I don't encourage it, I worry when others do it, but it helps me and I figure its my risk to take. I have medical training to deal with any of my slip ups.
Do you like watching movies with self-injury? Yes, makes me feel like I'm not alone.
Do you like looking at pictures of self-injury? Yes, makes me feel like I'm not a freak.
Do you sometimes envy other people? (non-self-injurers)? Yes.
Have you ever taken any pictures of your cuts/scars? Yes.
Do you want to die? Sometimes, but I don't hurt myself to try and kill myself.
Have you ever done a school assignment on cutting, or self-injury? Yes, I got an A for being insightful.
What do you like to listen to while cutting/depression/etc? Nothing really.
Have you ever needed stitches from cutting? Yes.
Do you dream about cutting? Sometimes.
What do you use to treat your cuts? Depends on how deep and what size they are. Butterfly bandages, gauze, neosporin, band aids, rubbing alcohol, hydrogen peroxide. I can't stand infection.