I drink to forget her
I've become an alcoholic because I can't seem to stop thinking about my ex even in my sleep. I've tried keeping busy, dating and even traveling a bit but every night I sleep sober or curl up at night sober she runs through my head and I don't get any sleep. I've come to terms it wasn't all my fault and I'm not sure If I still miss her but I think I feel guilty still for all the arguments I could have just walked away from. It ended badly so theres no way to get any "closure" to see if I could fix my guilt. Dreams of her shake me from my sleep if I'm not black out drunk.