I keep having gay s** fantasies about my long distance friend who I will eventually meet. I don't doubt being a heterosexual but having gay s** really excites me. Why should girls have all the fun "experimenting" with each other? Anyway, I don't wanna throw myself at him because it could get REALLY awkward as I'm not sure he feels the same way, and it could really s**** up our relationship. But I sometimes desperately want to suck his d*** and let him f*** me, but I'm assuming if he feels the same way we'd pick up on eachother and it would happen. I'm just at the pinnacle of my curiosity and horniness at my age and would really like to fulfill one of my many fantasies. Any tips on how to make this happen without having to over-commit myself would be much appreciated as I'm sure a lot of people have been in this situation and know how difficult it can be.
Thanks for the help!