I have this need to be controlled
I don't know why but I fantasize all the time about other being controlling me. Like me being their slave. I want someone to use, abuse and humiliate me. I've never actually acted on it but I think about it all the time. I've always had an inferiority complex and I'm sure this is what it stems from. It used to be fantasies about only being controlled and dominated by the opposite s** but now it's also fantasies about younger stronger members of the same s** controlling me in a non sexual way. At times I wish I was a robot or puppet without any feelings so I could be the plaything of someone else. Yeah I know I'm screwed up.