Love that will never be
Im 18, and i have been single since the 6th grade. Whenever i start having feelings for a girl something always interferes. Either she already has a boyfriend or one time i knew the feeling wasn't mutual I was on omegle and i ran into this girl who i thought was pretty cute, we joked around alot, talked about monsters and a bunch of other weird stuff, she told me she lived in the U.K, after an hour of talking with her I was amazed on how much we had on common. I felt like i could truly be myself around her, best of all she was single. However that little detail will keep me away from her forever. She lived in the U.K... My family has not traveled for fun, they never believed in it. I could never tell them my emotions without them making a mockery out of them, or making them the gossip of all our friends and family. There is no way i would be able to go to Europe let alone out of the country with the hope of "finding the girl i fell in love with over a video chat". That idea even sounds ridiculous even to me, and i know i just sound stupid saying i'm in love with her. Maybe it is love or maybe im just young and stupid. I am able to contact her through social media, but i know i will never see her in person. I can tell her how i feel over the internet, but its just pointless, i don't want to have these feelings for her but i can't control them. I really want to just forget about her, but i don't want to loose her as a friend either. What am i to do?