What to do?

I've done some crazy s*** in my life which i wish i didnt do but ever since i started getting several medical issues and found out i cant have children i've began to feel depressed. So i decided to join the RLSH team an for those who dont know it, it stands for Real Life Super Heroes. I havent told anyone but I've built a suit and added bullet proof vests and knife protection with a flame proof suit on top do you think im a bit over the top or i just need to get over it... add liamsimmonds1997 on ps3 if you wanna talk.