I have problems relaxing enough so that
I have problems relaxing enough so that I can o***** with my boyfriend. It's sad because he loves going down on me but I just have to tell him to stop and just penetrate me because it does nothing for me. His p**** is too big for me to be pleasured. We use lube, he goes down on me, I get really wet, and then we start having s** and it tears "down there." It's not an STD, I just can't relax enough to unclench the necessary muscles. The worst part is that I can o***** within 15 seconds from my vibrator. I feel so awkward just laying there breathing heavily while he is in the throes of o*****, then getting up and being like "Well! Welly Well Well."
I wish I could relax. I have reached o***** with other guys, and I've reached o***** with him a few times, but almost all the times I was imagining something else, like being degraded in some fashion. I've let him help me m********* and that helps a bit but it's always awkward. I wish that I could just be comfortable with my body and his and be able to have good s**.