No remorse for bad thoughts
This morning I awoke to read about the violence in Egypt of the Muslims against the Coptics (Egyptian Christians). My ex-boyfriend of the past two years is Coptic and splits his time between Egypt and the U.S. The first thought I had when I read the news was, "Good, I hope he was there!" I know it's a horrible thing to say and it really isn't like me to be so hateful, but I really feel this way. He is a Narcissist who has no empathy for anyone else, and I don't know any way that he can feel the pain he inflicted on me. Just imagining that Muslim radicals beat him to death is refreshing. I can't really tell anyone I know that I'm having such awful thoughts because they would think so much less of me. It just feels good to hope he would feel anything close to what I have felt.