I'm a 22 year old woman and I've been with my bf for 2 years.
[ we started dating in high school]
and every time I turn around I find myself hurting him or kicking him or scratching him, Just causing some sort of harm to him. and I realized I'm only hurting myself in the "process" It's just that I can't make myself stop or I stop for one day then It's back at square one. I don't mean to hurt him he's my whole life and without him I have nothing. I just want to die because I don't like the way I'm turning out to be and I wish I could just stop while I'm still young.
[ I just turned 22 by the way.]