Why does love have to be complicated.!!
I don't know what to call these feelings. I have been having an affair for a while with my exboyfriend whom I thought for many many years was dead. He remained in my thoughts and I guess in my heart. When I started the affair I did it for revenge and slowly I fell love with him again. We both know that what we have is more than s**, he is sorry for leaving me years ago. I can't help, it makes sad and tell myself if he really loved me he would have ended the relationship instead, of disappearing. I tell myself many times I need to ended, I know is wrong but the taught of not ever talking to him or seeing him depresses me. I did not think I would fall in love with him, I know sooner or later he is going to find a girlfriend and I have to stay away.
I love my husband in a different way, I'm not sure if I'm still in love with him. He has had multiple affairs and the reason we don't call it quits is because of our young children and finances. Arhggggg. Why does life have to be so complicated.