I have been in love with a guy two years elder to me since I was a high school freshman. Gradually he left school for college and I stayed back. The thing is - I love him very much. He is something else. He's different; fearless - and I respect him very much. He has never been particularly nice to me and has absolutely no attachments to me. But I love him and want to be with him.
On one day, I had an argument with him over some s*** and there was this another good friend of me who was by my side(he is also a senior) though he does not know about the previous guy. The same day he said he loved him and out of frustration and disillusionment, I said yes. But I know I dont love him as a boyfriend. It has been 2 years and things have only become worse. He has become so mad for me that he will go to any extent for me.
The thing is my best friend and classmate(also a boy) is in love with me too.
I can't talk about these to anyone.
I am totally responsible for all this mess. Can anyone suggest what I can do?