I am 18 years old, overweight, and a
I am 18 years old, overweight, and a virgin. I went on a website three days ago and applied to be a pin-up model for SuicideGirls. I know I'm beautiful and I know that I would make a rockin' SuicideGirl, but I'm so afraid that this will be another thing that I get my hopes up for and never get. I'm afraid that Missy Suicide will reject me and tell me that I'm not good enough. And that might not seem like a lot to you all, but this is what I've wanted to do with my life since I first saw one of my dad's Penthouse Mags and it will crush me if I am rejected.