If I didn't hate you before...
Now I REALLY hate you.
I hate that I gave a pathetic emotional train wreck like you the incessant, caring and obsessive attention I gave YOU for 18 months...while ignoring everything else more important, useful and salvagable about my life.
I let someone very important to me go completely downhill because of you and my own failings- which include wasting time on wastes of time like YOU. And now she is DYING.
I also confess I will probably vent these regrets, over and over, in different ways and on different sites...probably the rest of my life.
What did I EVER see in YOU???