I swear, from this day forth, that if my current relationship fails, which it is about to, I will never EVER in my entire life get into another relationship. I swear under God that I am done. I cannot do it. So I am making this statement to the world. And may it forever be ingrained in my bones. To myself: Remember the pain, the infidelity - on your part and his - and how the good only lasts so long before it all goes downhill again. I am not meant for this type of relationship. I am done.