Single Awareness Day

Even though she never promised or even said it, I always believed (or hoped) that eventually she would see how good I am for her, how much better I am for her than her husband, and then she would leave him and marry me (although I realize that, even if we got married, she would still be out there ** other guys: that's just who she is). In both your posts, you said things about her that are so unbelievably accurate and insightful that it's like you know her. This time it was the thought about her using men like toys: one of her married girlfriends said EXACTLY that to me one night after we started dating when I met them out at a bar (she knows about Eileen and I being a secret couple), and told me that she has always used men, ever since she started dating, and never ever had only one relationship going at a time. About six months ago, that same woman -- very recently divorced -- told me that I'd lasted longer with Eileen than anyone other than her husband, but she didn't say it like it was a compliment (she also knows that I'm not the only guy Eileen cheats with). Now that Valentine's Day has passed, and my anger and bitterness at Eileen and the fact that she was out at dinner and then sucking her husband's ** "all day and night" has passed, too, I think I might just call her divorced friend, ask her out on an actual date (without the hiding), and ignore Eileen when and if she calls to ** at me. Thanks for the candor and the motivation. I realize we don't know each other, but that's the kind of things friends do, and I appreciate it greatly.