Is it Normal To hate people this much?
I hate almost everyone around me right now. My neighbor, she's in the hospital and has been for over 2 months now and it's becoming obvious she won't be on Earth too much longer. My friends, they stink. They leave me out and I'm tired oF being a third wheel. My parents put me down and I hate them. Pure hate. Not family hate, actually i wish they would die hate. I want to leave, but I was adopted at almost a year old. I'm thirteen now. I've had two families and it has damaged me more than I show. I don't know if I could handle being put into another family. My grades are straight A's, but I feel stupid. Art is my talent, but even that I'm starting to let go of. My parents call me spoiled and ungrateful which I'm not. My parents are the age of my friends great grandparents or aunts and uncles, so they'Re older. I feel like no one understands me. My dad lost his job about 3-4 months ago. My mom is working crazy shifts. My dad stops getting paid in November and he keeps saying we're gonna be poor and move. I really can't keep taking all this crap. And on top of that every girl my age has a boyfriend and I don't. I know not every girl really does, but it feels like it. It's really frustrating. I've been asked out, I've just said no. I want the person that's my first boyfriend to last longer than 2 weeks.My teachers annoy me sometimes too. And the boy I really like used to like me and my friend told him I liked him which didn't help and my friend that told him is one of his best friends. So now I just have to be around him all the time and it's awkward. And there's drama! All my friends have drama 24/7 and I HATE DRAMA! and if I don't help them out, then I become even more of a third wheel because I'm not involved.And there's more to my story yet if you can believe it or not. I'm silent in school and everyone always tells me ," How are you always smiling?" and " Abby, your so nice, I don't know how you do it" and I don't think they'll be able to say that much longer. And I'm Asian. There's one other asian person in my class and he doesn't care, but it bugs me. Everyone says like we eat puppies and it's cause we're asian and that china is gonna bomb them, they say something and then they always say sorry abby but it's like really?! EVERYDAY they do that in EVERY class. So in conclusion, I have a lot of pressure and anger on me right now. I wrote this to ask Is it normal to have this much anger? I know I'm in the teen years and that my life could be much worse, but I'm just asking, what would you do? and is this normal to be so angry? I mean I'm not angry all the time, but it builds up and I don't know how much longer I can keep it bottled up because it's been bottled up for years now and I'm really about to break. Please answer my two questions honestly.