Is it Normal To hate people this much?

I hate almost everyone around me right now. My neighbor, she's in the hospital and has been for over 2 months now and it's becoming obvious she won't be on Earth too much longer. My friends, they stink. They leave me out and I'm tired oF being a third wheel. My parents put me down and I hate them. Pure hate. Not family hate, actually i wish they would die hate. I want to leave, but I was adopted at almost a year old. I'm thirteen now. I've had two families and it has damaged me more than I show. I don't know if I could handle being put into another family. My grades are straight A's, but I feel stupid. Art is my talent, but even that I'm starting to let go of. My parents call me spoiled and ungrateful which I'm not. My parents are the age of my friends great grandparents or aunts and uncles, so they'Re older. I feel like no one understands me. My dad lost his job about 3-4 months ago. My mom is working crazy shifts. My dad stops getting paid in November and he keeps saying we're gonna be poor and move. I really can't keep taking all this crap. And on top of that every girl my age has a boyfriend and I don't. I know not every girl really does, but it feels like it. It's really frustrating. I've been asked out, I've just said no. I want the person that's my first boyfriend to last longer than 2 weeks.My teachers annoy me sometimes too. And the boy I really like used to like me and my friend told him I liked him which didn't help and my friend that told him is one of his best friends. So now I just have to be around him all the time and it's awkward. And there's drama! All my friends have drama 24/7 and I HATE DRAMA! and if I don't help them out, then I become even more of a third wheel because I'm not involved.And there's more to my story yet if you can believe it or not. I'm silent in school and everyone always tells me ," How are you always smiling?" and " Abby, your so nice, I don't know how you do it" and I don't think they'll be able to say that much longer. And I'm Asian. There's one other asian person in my class and he doesn't care, but it bugs me. Everyone says like we eat puppies and it's cause we're asian and that china is gonna bomb them, they say something and then they always say sorry abby but it's like really?! EVERYDAY they do that in EVERY class. So in conclusion, I have a lot of pressure and anger on me right now. I wrote this to ask Is it normal to have this much anger? I know I'm in the teen years and that my life could be much worse, but I'm just asking, what would you do? and is this normal to be so angry? I mean I'm not angry all the time, but it builds up and I don't know how much longer I can keep it bottled up because it's been bottled up for years now and I'm really about to break. Please answer my two questions honestly.

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  • Is it normal? Well you are 13, so what your feeling could very well be hormonal. If you've started your menstrual cycle, emotions are especially heightened during that time. Now if you're dealing with depression or anxiety or feelings that you just can't control, talk to your doctor about it. What to do? Take some deep breaths, remember to just take things one day at a time. People are going to annoy you sometimes. That is life. But then some days people will surprise you in the best ways possible. Seeing a therapist may help you a lot, because it sounds like you need someone to talk to. Your parents sound like their stressed and so some of the things they say may not come out as supportive as they should. Remember you are 13, you're trying to find your independence at this age and since your parents are a little older there may be more disagreements on the way. It's just the teen years :-) yay! Best way is to talk with them. Remember they love you, even if they're going through a hard time. You should talk to someone about how you feel about being adopted, because that seems to be something that bothers you. Maybe you feel like you have been abandoned or don't belong, even though you have parents who love you. Regarding your friends leaving you out, tell them how you feel. And also try and make other friends too. And about them teasing you.. kids are so cruel..try your best to ignore them. They're idiots. Another thing that would help a lot is to be sure to take care of yourself. Eat healthy, get enough sleep and exercise. Don't bottle things up, it doesn't do anybody any good and it just builds. Maybe keep a journal. Lastly..where boys are concerned, it will happen. Hang in there :-).

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