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I know what turns me on but it does not define who I am
I'm a 21 year old female and I know I am straight. I'm not in denial or anything about what it is I'm into. I've been in a wonderful and loving relationship with my soul-mate for 7 years. I watch ** and I always end up wandering towards the lesbian category. I personally do not like having oral ** performed on me. I find it gross but I absolutely love giving my boyfriend head. It's just my personal preference. However, there is something I find so hot with watching lesbians eat each other out. It gets me so wet and just thinking about it now makes me wants to ** myself. I've never told anyone about it and I don't feel guilty about watching it though. Regardless of my preference with watching **, I know I am not bisexual. So is there such thing as being straight but enjoying lesbian **? I'm sure I'm not the only one out there.
Sleepovers. That's what they are for :) only with the one bff that you trust the very most, go online together to look at those vids and the vids will work their magic on both of you, then just enjoy.
(Only with the on bff you trust the most because you don't want any of it leaking back to school, like what happened to me)
From when I was like nine until I was almost eleven, with the help of online stuff my bestie and I were very active at sleepovers. Between sleepovers, doing the DYI stuff was something I did in my room before sleeping. I only looked at those vids IF I was alone in the house which wasn't often but it did happen now and then.
I was almost thirteen when I had my very first lesbian experience with a full adult female that was a friend of my mom. She made the first move and since I already done stuff at sleepover it didn't like freak me out. It actually felt natural to me. We were very careful and very discreet so not to get caught because the consequences would have been disastrous.
My parents never found out how active I was as a preteen & teen. I came out to friends & family as lesbian after college but I omitted telling them of my activities and lovers from my childhood for totally obvious reasons.
Accept it, enjoy it...good luck !!
Nothing wrong with that. Guys have a similar issue. I'm not gay (I have no issues with gay) but the thought of a guy getting head is **. The turn on is someone being pleasured by something or another IMO. It, in and of itself, is ** and a turn on. Watching someone yield themselves and let go...being controlled...it's **.
Don't be ashamed of your desires..that's merely what society has pushed into your head over the years. Let loose with your inhibitions.
You and I would never get along in bed. My girlfriend loves blowing me and I love eating her. We both love giving and receiving oral. Nothing at all gross about it as long as both are clean. Vaginal ** is the only thing better.
By gross, I meant messy, at least for me. Plus, oral ** really does nothing for me. I can't help it. But I love giving my boyfriend oral, we satisfy each other in bed without me receiving oral so it's no big deal for us. Also, by saying we would never get along in bed is implying we would ever do it, which is likely never :)
Nothing wrong with you. I love giving head, because i enjoy my ** partner being pleased. i enjoy it even more receiving and appreciate it somebody is doing the effort for me. there is a possibility you dont feel secure with your **, but does not have to be the case. sometimes it just is what it is.
the other part is really interesting to see in a woman. i am straight too. i love women, they are the most beautiful thing in the world. but i am going to be honest by saying that i love watching **. i am not bi nor gay. i am not attracted by men in any way nor do i seek any physical contact. i just think that (not all) ** are **. i even sucked 2. whereas i have to add it started with me as with you, just watched to guys sucking each other. i enjoy it because it makes me feel ** cant explain why or how, and once i blew my steam off, i dont feel this attraction to ** anymore until next time. there are a lot of other guys who have the same desire?/fetish?/fantasy? but are also completely straight. dont worry about it, because being comfortable with your sexuality and fantasy is an enormous part of your mental health and happiness. just do what makes you feel good:)