I hate my life
My son cut off all my daughters beautiful hair. all the way down her back to the nape of her neck. i hate him. but worst of all - i am afriad of what he will do later in life. i've tried therapists after therapists and am giving it one more go. but i look at him and only feel disgust and rage and hate. i love my child - i'm his mother - but emotionally i am in shock and cannot wrap my head around it. i show him affection and am trying to be the best mother i can but i hate him.
i avoid him. i feel empty. i feel void. i feel dead inside and everyone can see it.
everytime i see my beautiful daughter, i lose it all over again.
i wish that i had never had children. or i wish that i could go back in time 8 years. or sleep for the next 5.
i hate my life.