I made a huge mistake divorcing my ex. I thought I had it all figured out. I was so sure it was what I wanted. It's been 9 months since I left and 2 months since our divorce was finalized. I have a new life now with my children. But I'm miserable. I even let "I love you" slip out at the end of one of our conversations lately. We are both seeing new people. He is seeing someone whom I have always thought he should be with, which makes things harder on me. Not only do I miss my old life with him, I feel guilty for asking for him back, I was selfish to leave him and now I can't selfishly ask for him back if he's with someone that I think he was meant to be with. Still I'm with someone I do have feelings for but it's just not the same. I cry often over this. I bear a lot of regrets and guilt, to the point that I just want to end my life. How could I have done this to my family, to my kids? How could I have just left my ex like it was nothing? :( I can't believe how big of a mistake I've made.