I Cant Stand This Feeling
So, I f***** up pretty bad. I'm in 9th grade, and two weeks before school was out in 8th grade I got caught with 3 grams of pot in my bag. I'm in Florida Virtual School now, and I hate it. I'm tired of people telling me "suck it up, it'll be over soon." it wont. Recently I had a small breakdown, and decided that in order for me to be happy I'd have to quit doing virtual and do something else. For months now, I do nothing but sleep. I stay up all night, and sleep most of the day. My grandparents are very overprotective and support me for quitting, because I spend most of my time at their house, they've seen me cry and stress over school. It's not that it's too hard, it's just complicated and I'm isolated from people my age. Last Saturday was the first time in seven months that I've hung out with someone my age, apart from my cousin who is the same age as I. I'm tired of being isolated, and having this held against me. I realize I'm not legally old enough to drop out yet and that it would come back on my parents, but they won't listen to my opinion about it. My mom took my phone and my laptop because I didn't do school work, and that didn't help any (I need the laptop to do school). My parents keep saying "when I was in 9th grade I didn't do anything until summer because of my grades." They don't realize that it's so much harder on me than it was on them. They had friends, teachers, and weren't at home ALL THE DAMN TIME.I hate having this feeling over my head.